HEY DAD! I AM DOING THIS WITHOUT YOU

The boy who is

looking at the sky

having no tears he has 

left to cry

The boy whose age is

less than 10

has stronger arms than 

his father who left!

Leaving his mother 

might be his source of tranquility

but for that kid, she

is his responsibility

At this age, where children

love to play in the park

he is the kid

whose strenuous steps

are the heaviest on the grass

Using his beautiful heart

as the center of hope

he is finding peace for his

mother

The boy with his small 

yet powerful steps

dragging his mother's wheelchair

for her dialysis

Dragging it with loads of power

and hope

feeling accomplish after her 

temporary ease

The smiles on their

innocent faces

are priceless that 

are caused by that

kid's optimism

He is the toughest of all,

epitome of incredibility

star of hope

that shines to brighten up

her mother's world

O my Lord! mothers having 

sons like him

are the "luckiest"

Hey dad! I am doing this without you

Our story

We met through our mutual friend

started talk for hours

we both fell in love

There were beautiful moments that

we shared,

And i want them back.

those when you literally loved me.

  

Care that directly came from your heart

you weren't that man who could hurt me

or even think about it.

you gave all of your love

and we loved unconditionally

There was a war between our enemies 

but our love was strong as our relation

that it never gave up.

In admiring you, I forgot that how could we

name our love story without any twist.

The twist that leads to death of loyal ones

where one do all those things that

ultimately cause the merciless death of love.

Now nothing is same as before

you aren't same as you were

our love about we wished for 

is not soulful  

you can see me cry 

you are killing me through your words

making me breathless every single time

if i could do, i would beg you once and 

make a promise 

but it never happened

and the bitter truth is 

it all happened in the movies

where one would love you as long as you

love 

and love you even at your worst

Those were the times

Those were the times

when you cared for me

when you wrapped your soul around mine

when you help me not 

to split into pieces

Those were the times when you loved,

when you taught me the way of survival

after panic attacks

you lifted me off the ground

when i found myself broken

Those were the times when nothing mattered

to you except me 

you treated me like your queen 

the queen who ruled your world

you always helped me to grow

beautifully

Yes! those were  the times when 

you used to do anything for me

i still remember you, bringing chocolates 

when i felt myself worthless

Those were the times when

you held my hand 

after I'd lost myself 

around those snakes 

Those were the times

for which i am yearning for 

and dying for 

but you never came back

and you never lend your shoulder to cry on 

the way you used to do years ago.

Still I am thanking you for giving me 

such beautiful memories.

That girl who caught your attention.

That girl you saw in the park
had crystal blue  eyes,
demanding only attention
those sleek beautiful hair
that flowed with the wind


she was dressed in a way,
with ripped jeans of your type
and a shirt that had words "you are awesome"

on it

you thought once, you really needed to go
took a heavy breath, you tried to move.
approaching steps
throbbing heart
shaking body
made yourself stop at that moment


you thought for a while
mustered your courage
fixed yourself
moved forward


suddenly your steps lost movement
your brain wasn't allowing you
there was a thunder of thoughts in your mind


you would get ignore
you would face insult
were you within the standards for hers?
would she look into my eyes as I would look into hers?
would she lend her attention to me?
would I look a fool to her?
should I go?


you again made yourself calm and relaxed
wanted to exchange the feelings
you were in the desire
wanting her to come and say
she really took an interest


she was worthy of attention
you thought
you tried to persuade your heart
to let you free from her


but the heart wants what it wants
the heart wanted to love her
to praise her
to appreciate her
that words she had on her shirt
was actually for her
she was AWESOME 


but his brain,
made the steps at rest
played a great role in affecting the courage
made you a loser


because at that time
you were indulged
in going or winding up
she went from there


you waited another day
another week
another month
but nothing happened
as you wished!

The girl who caught your attention.